I too lost my father back in 07 so I know how it is to lose a loved one. All you can do is take it day by day man. Its the hardest thing in world to lose a parent at such a young age. You just dont know how hard it is till it happens. I know its hard to do but just try to be strong.
Welcome to the ____tiest club around. 50 is far to young to go. Sorry to hear that.