First off, I never said I was in financial ruins so comments like what little money I have left are way off base. I think you have me mistaken with another fallen artist. I did say that I have been issuing a lot of refunds lately so that has added a but of a strain but I am working though them. As for you vodoun, this is a public forum and you are entitled to your opinion but so am I, and here is mine: you are an _______ that has nothing better to do than lurk around in peoples thread and stir up ____. We have never had any dealing with each other and even though you must feel you are a champion of the people or what ever, I think everybody knows I screwed up, but thank goodness we have you to chronicle it for us.
As for not updating my list, yes I did stop because it really isn't any body's business but mine and the person I owe something too. I have been dealing with everyone through PM or e-mails. I am not going anywhere. I am not going to pack it in like a lot of people before me. I have said before that no one would get ripped off and I meant it. Yes lately refunds have been easier for me because my heart wasn't in the work. I was in a bad place and I never meant to miss deadlines and break so many promises. I really believed I could make those deadlines and that I would make it happen because I have the ability, I just couldn't find the drive. I can't give back lost time, hurt feelings and broken promises, but i can make good on my debts. I have had some long talks lately with fellow artists, Spenser, Seb, King Grayskull, Bobby C.. etc and they have all pushed me to get back up and make things right again, and I will.
This week I have hit some pretty big milestones in this mess mainly with getting the Mola Ram project wound down and starting to go out to people (and yet I have sent out tracking info to them to prove it) I am feeling very good about things now and it makes me feel good to see people dropping by to say that they were taking care of, but it does piss me off as well when people who have no dog in the race drop by just to try to rain on it.
I have been around along time and plan to be around alot longer. I should never have tried to branch out from casting services because that is what I am best at. At the time I got into doing the clothes there were some voids that needed filling and I knew I could help with it, but I realize now I don't enjoy that side of it enough to take on as much as I did. Anybody that I either broke a promise too or missed a deadline, I want you to know I am truly sorry and embarrassed by the way I handled things. This is not me at all. Life is really turning around for my right now on a lot of fronts. My wife has gotten her insomnia back under control, my shop is fully open and setup for working on things (and I actually feel like it again), I have been exercising again and getting back into a little better shape, so I am going to continue on this positive wave and make the best of it. I know a lot of people have reason not to believe me, but I will just have to prove it to everybody and keep righting my wrongs.
Take care everybody,
Ryan