I have gone through a lot of thinking today, and I have decided to quit bothering with these Chris Howes threads because they do nothing but waste my time. The money's already gone, my time and sanity don't have to be. I know some of you will no doubt call me a nut, but some pretty important principles came to mind as I was outside today. I ended up sending Chris this letter:
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I was thinking about all this today as I was out enjoying the sunshine, and a pretty important thought came to me...
The Lord's prayer says "forgive others of their debts as you wish to be forgiven."
If I ever screw up as bad as you have, I hope to be forgiven. I hope God's grace will cover me, remind me of who I am, and free me.
You are forgiven. You owe me nothing. Seriously, I'm freeing you of the obligation. If that $45 is so important that you need to ignore me and continue spin to the few you answer, keep it. I never want to live entangled in such a mess.
The people you are ignoring and look down upon are very good people that your actions have hurt. They would not be reacting the way they are if you approached them as equals, and respected them enough to give them what they paid for, and to engage them honestly. I wouldn't want that blotch on my soul.
I'm dropping this matter. I refuse to let it bother me any more, or for what you have done to have a hold on me in any way. I don't have the kind of money and connections you do, but I don't care. I choose to move on and be happy with what I have and who I am. It's not going to waste another moment of my life. I'll accept the $45 loss as a lesson learned, and get on with enjoying my life, and not getting torn up about it. I hope God blesses you, and helps you to learn some humility and grants you the peace, bravery, and grace to handle what you're going through, and brings you out of this experience a wiser person. I have certainly had many experiences that have done that to me.
That's all, you'll never hear from me again. Your debt is forgiven. I hope this will inspire you be as kind to others as I have been to you.
Take care,
(The Drizzle on SSF and OSW Forums)
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None of you guys need worry about going to bat for me any more. I'm over it. I'm not looking for anything from Chris or expecting anything, I just don't want to waste my time on negative endeavors any more. Chris chose to do what he wanted to do, and I'm going to choose what I want to do, and not let the situation bother me any more.
That's all, see you guys in other threads.