Re: LES WALKER - All NEW Custom Works 2009
Thanks guys.
Just want to express some things really heartfelt here.
I am aware that there are a lot of members, more than I probably want to know, who are angry and frustrated at how long it's taken me on all this work. I understand. I am not a villianous jerk, out to rip people off. I am a novice businessman, who is a dedicated son to his mom and pop first, an artist with a right brain and a bad left hook, sorry, joke, and a NOVICE business man.
When the events of last year came around, and basically knocked me off my boat, it nearly killed me. Not saying that for manipulation, or pity. I abhor pity! I just know seeing my Mom lose it over the last couple of years damn near ruined my entire family, MUCH LESS ME.
So, did I handle my business affairs well? Did I take more commissions than I should have, was I too scared of going broke to stop taking work and kept going even when I shouldn't have?
YOU BET! I am not proud that I got behind. Most of you know that.
But, most of you know too, how much I love this hobby, and this collecting world, and how much I LOVE to paint, and make art. I live for it. I will probably die for it.
It is hard now to catch up, and try like hell to have all the behind work done by the 15th of April. Will I make it? Not sure, but I SURE AM TRYING! So, know I am in this, FOR YOU GUYS, AND NOT FOR MYSELF! Believe me, if I was into it for ME, sure as hell wouldn't be up til 4am every day, toiling on work that I wish had been done long, long ago. NO WAY! It sucks to catch up, but catch up I will.
All this to say, there are angry members here, with me. I am no god, no saint, no MASTER, just a small town Georgia boy who can't beleive he got to hold King Kong. I am LUCKY to be here amongst you all now.
I am lucky. I don't feel worthy of the praise, OFTEN.
So, it always hurts when one of you gets angry or even hates me. I can understand though, to some degree. But dammit, I didn't ask for this last year! I am still getting past it. DAY AFTER DAY and I am no trained man in the ways of survival or dealing with stuff like this. It has been horrendous. If I told you all about my Mom, and her mental state, and how actually, she is abusive to us, and yet, I still LOVE HER, and how this just eats my brain sometimes, I guess that wouldn't matter to some.
Just know, I cannot ever repay you guys back. I can finish the work for you, and do more. IF YOU LET ME, if I am worthy of it, even after one bad year.
But to those of you that just can't let me be human, and have made a series of mistakes, that caused a bunch of toys and toy parts to run late, when that is all it is, no personal purposes, no personal attacks, just some bad judgement, from which I have learned plenty...
If you can't forgive me or anyone else for that matter, that has this happen, then what the hell are you? I mean, damn! I have been pretty up front here.
So many of you get it, some don't.
I guess that is how it will always be. I hate it too. I only wanted to do the work and make YOU happy. That is the truth of it. There is nothing more.
Nothing. I LIVE TO DO ART! Without it, I am nothing.
So, you and your appreciation of it in part define me, and if I am good, or not, which is in the eye of the beholder of course. But I am also not after anyone's money, or stuff or any of that. IT CAN ALL BURN compared to what you all are to me.
So, know I am here, and hope we can all work ANY late stuff out.
I am always here. Trying.
More shipout info soon. Thanks for letting me say that. I need to thank you guys more often, without you, I don't know where I'd be.
