Re: DarkArtist's Creations of DOOM!
So glad to see some of Josh's works again.
To all that await customs from Josh, (and/or myself), a few comments of support...
(sorry this is long, but it is heartfelt)
What a difference a couple of years make.
When I first got into this hobby, around 2001 or so, online at any rate, not counting years of it for myself, I was just an enthusiastic figure collector, just like all of you. I liked making figures, and showing them to friends. I had even taken some of my first ones, to a convention, which an early Sideshow hosted by the way, and met plenty of cool folks.
So, when I got into this world, and this site, in 2006 I think, and so many of you loved what I had done, it was a short step to repainting heads for people. I made some figures, but the whole repaint thing got me going, and being an amateur businessperson, but a lifelong artist, I erroneously thought, SURE! I can do this! I can paint heads for guys and stop working and just do this for a living!
For a while, it actually worked.
Then, for me, (and apparently also for Josh), Life intervened. Right when I was in the most demand. I was taking orders left and right and coming up with heads and projects, and out of two things, fear of debt, and the thought that my then current bad Life episodes would wane soon, I kept taking orders for stuff! And on and on.
The single dumbest act of my life! STOOPID!
So...
Back a few years, I meet Josh. We both go at this work with a similar method, not a good one to begin with, and share from each other, and don’t get it right from day one.
Now, we are paying for that. Both he and I took way too many projects we shouldn’t have. I have my problems, he has his, but one thing we both share, is how we feel about what it’s done to us as artists.
I know, I was partly motivated by the adoration and desire for my works. That was all new to me, and I’ll tell you, It’s like a drug. One you can get very emotionally addicted to, and if you are not a true business person, it’s one that can screw you up, as it has me, Josh and others here and at other websites I am sure. Just the adoration alone is a great motivation. But I took on too much because of it. And took on a lot of angry detractors too. Some that got tired of anyone that defended me. That is happening here with Josh too. And they have a right to be frustrated. That’s the rub, that we can understand them too well.
Basically, when these projects got behind, we were not prepared. I myself need still a good assistant or manager if I ever do any of it again.. We are just not good businessmen, though we try, and with good intent. So, here are the fruits of our labors, behind backlogs, daily stresses that keep us awake at night, and keep us tired and not at our best game form for our art, and from all that, a growing sea of anger and resentment, which again, is VERY UNDERSTANDABLE to us both. I totally understand you guys being upset. I would be, as I am not a patient person, so I know.
There is right, and wrong. That I get. But with this, please understand, there are shades of grey, where we as just artist guys, were trying to offer something up to others, screwed up, and are desperately trying to catch up, and finish. And all the while be told over and over what bad businessmen we are. WE KNOW! Trust me! I do. And it is a horrid embarrassment. So much for art skills when we can’t get the work to those that have paid for it.
I can’t speak for other artists here, as some of them, the smart ones, have actually benefited from our mistakes, both in a business sense, and in how NOT to approach this! LOL! I know! But I hope they are doing great. The next generation of repainters and artists. They will take this further and keep the customs changes going. I may or may not. Josh might yet. Just know, he is trying.
So, to Josh, get your work done, buddy! (Just like I am trying to do!) WORK! PAINT! Try to find that place in yourself where the inspiration comes from, even when you don’t feel like painting, and feel flat, and depressed, and filled with guilt at not having finished for so many cool guys. It can tear you up. It is not the way to do this. Forgive yourself, and keep on fighting and I will too, and one day in the future, we will have that glory beer over surviving all this, and say, ENOUGH! And then maybe, be talked back into it yet again.
But until then, keep your head, and stay the course, and paint! It is the hardest work I have ever done. EVER! Nothing compares to it. Soemtimes, I think I would rather mow yards every day for a year then sit down for one week at this paint stained table, looking at these old, promised projects, but they are someone’s fun and dreams, and we MUST FINISH THEM PROPERLY AND SEND THEM ON!
Unfortunately, it is not about how we feel. That is what makes it so hard for us, with our right brained approaches and sorely tested amateur business senses, to do good work in spite of our situations.
Time to get it in gear. Time to muster up and finish.
See you at the finish line, old chum! Hang in there, you and Therese both.
(Keep her safe and secure my friend, and you will do fine. The rest will work out. )