Wow. Perfection eh/ Glad to know someone thinks that.
Why? Because I owe one member here a huge apology, that's why.
Wanna see some Non-Perfection!?!?!
I know I am late on a lot of work. You all know that. Most of you know why. It is not all my doing. I have been, and still am in, one of the worst periods of my life. Worst. I am making decisions about my Mom that guts me every day. I have personally been to the doctor about my own stresses and have high blood pressure it seems over it. It has always been the Ma angle that has had me so frustrated. I want to state that. Ma and family is more important to me than my work or anything else. That is what has me so stressed, not the work.
But, the work, the painting,
I love what I do. I am fortunate to be able to do it. I have had the opportunity to do work for so many members here, and so many others outside, and have made a lot of real, true friends in the doing. And you all have been at my side. You helped me get my Mom a recliner chair, and that is more than above the call of duty.
Why do I say all this, because I must admit, I am fallable. I make mistakes.
I am not a machine. If I were, this wouldn't have happened:
It is my too hasty paint of the awesome Andy sculpted Robert Deniro head for a member here.
And that member is PO'd and rightly so. It is sloppy, and not my best work.
I take full responsibility for it also. For the record, I am offering to redo it for free, as it was an added gift head for my being late anyway, but I must redo this thing. I hope he will let me.
This is one I did some time back, same headsculpt, just so you can see that I can paint it...
I CAN paint it. I have. I just thought I could do it fast, and get it quickly out to the customer, to make them happy, because I am behind on his work. I thought I owed him that. Seems my rush only exacerbated the problem.
See why I try not to rush? Not to push. I can, and have, sometimes it doesn't matter and things come out great. Most times, it works out.
Issues like this however are a bother to me at present, because I am going through some very tough and personally stressful times. I am embarrassed at that work. I do not want to repeat that kind of finish. And I will make good on it if the customer will allow me to.
Now, bear in mind that I do not paint for such extreme closeups but for the naked eye, and if you got in REALLY, REALLY tight, on most of my paints, you would see flaws. I do not use an airbrush, so sometimes my blends are not perfect. Sometimes irises are not perfectly round. But I am proud that most always you can't tell if it's airbrushed or not.
And, I can do better than this last travesty. Why I let it go is a mystery. I wanted more in the box of stuff to this client. I wanted more done, to makeup for having waited so long. I made an error. A bad one.
So, this is an open apology to the member, for less than stellar work. It is beneath me and him.
Many of you have said that the wait is worth it. Well, I hope so. I pray so.
I am making some new rules on myself. NO MORE WORK LIKE THAT SHIPPED EVER! I know better. Even stressed, I know better.
So, if you wait, it will be worth it. Even if you have waited a long time.
So....that is my proof that I am not perfect. I do make mistakes. And, I do paint sloppy sometimes. And even have sent it out. Gads!
If nothing else, this can give hope to others here that paint their own heads, that their works can be improved. There is always room for that, even for so-called masters.
So...off I go
BACK TO WORK! I have more coming.
And again, to the member in question, I humbly apologize.
I feel I owe him this. And to anyone else that waits.....I will not rush your work.
Thanks.