OMG... I cannot believe I am a mom. George has been just UNBELIEVABLE. He is the best daddy ever. It sure has been an emotional rollercoaster and I never expected that I would have the baby blues. I was just so over the moon happy during my pregnancy, this is what I have been waiting for all my life. But with the emergency c-section, I never expected to have to make that decision, going through the emotions, the physical pain, and the fact that our beautiful angel is a big boy and frustrated when his milk is not there in one two three... it takes a few days for my body to get the good stuff in, with c-section even longer... he cried and I felt like he did not love me and with my hormones crashing on day 3 I cried and cried and cried. Even yesterday coming home for the first time and being on our own, I was scared but the hardest part is that I can do nothing because I had major surgery. Today is a lot better. Being a mom is awesome. But I would never have been able to do it without my George. When you imagine having a baby I guess I always thought about learning them things and never took the first months where they are so helpless and dependend on you. Am going to rest now. Am exhausted.