it's not the thumb, it's the ptsd the army tagged me with when i got out cause i admitted to having insomnia/nightmares and being jumpy around sudden loud noises. it's an unwritten, unspoken practice to not hire guys who may go "rambo". i've been to oodles of dr.'s who have cleared me, but in our litigious society it's a no go despite all my training and experiences. considering all the crap/lack of support cops get in nyc and all the good ole boy cops doing bad things off the clock up here, i don't want it anymore. thanks for the comment.
Oh man, sorry to hear about that. Sucks that you can be written off as something and then it's over- no matter what you do, people won't listen.
I can understand both sides of the story. I am glad you have moved past it. Hopefully you will find something better.