I love smoking, but I know that physically, I can't maintain. At the end of 2008 as my dad was recovering from having 10cm of his esophagus removed, I was fully ready to quit. Then he got diagnosed with multiple inoperable metastasis in his liver. He kept smoking. I didn't want to leave him alone, so I kept smoking. I swore I would only do it until he died. He died at the end of November and after I finished his last pack, I went three days. Unfortunately, after losing him, I was in no shape to quit.
The other night, I went into a convenience store and found a Bic with the logo from the first Motley Crue album (which is the best one) in red on white. They were my favorite band from 12-16 and I figure I had to smoke long enough to own a Too Fast for Love lighter. The only thing missing was a pentagram. When it runs out, I will have smoked my last Old Gold soft pack.