Well I just got some terrible news yesterday, well it's not really terrible but in order for me to win my pro card this year in Ohio I will have to not only take my overall in Missouri at the end of October in order to qualify for the Ohio show and win it as well to gain pro status. Some new rules about not competing within two years even though I have 3-5 first place placements in the past 5 years (2 1st place placements in weight class and 1 1st place placement in the a overall in 2009), but some how that is all tossed waste side because of the 2 year non-competing mark.
Even though this recent news is not a total wash to me but it definitely was a lot more than I thought I was going to have to do here in Missouri, so instead of my plan to place 1st in my weight class and not have to win the overall, I will have to now to do that because of my hiatus from the sport. This has not only fuel the fire inside of me but it's made me even more determined than ever before. I was told at the registering by a judge "That shouldn't be a problem for someone in your shoes". I didn't know how to take it, whether that was a compliment or a insult. A compliment meaning that I should be able to win the overall here in October and skate on through but an insult as I've pretty much become a veteran that has never won the card but I keep placing in the top spots for almost a decade.
The one thing is that is for sure, never tell me "never" or "no" whenever I'm trying to achieve something. I will become that monster that will keep the eyes on the prize. I will picture myself while doing HIIT on the treadmill winning that 1st place trophie. I will visualize myself in the gym 3:00-3:30 in the morning being the only sole who is crazy enough to be deadlifting 600lbs without a single person but the worker who is at the front desk who tells me "Go get it, Dave!!!" at the door.
I'm not sure about everybody else and they way they think, maybe I'm a different animal or wired differently but whenever something is going against the grain in my life, it only makes me stronger, angrier, determined, focus, driven. Those are the words that I can describe my feelings as I'm going into this fight or the "Lions Den".
The thoughts just are either crazy or borderline crazy
whenever I'm in the gym, focusing on the prize.
Anyways, I did HIIT for an hour today after my weight training and I'm doing HIIT again tonight, we are below the 70 day out from competition mark, so there's still plenty of time, 30 days out is whenever everything starts to get crazy. You want to eat the people standing in line at the grocery store, you have side blinders on as people at work are asking you about your meals, the little hits or low jabs from remarks don't bounce off like bee-bee's on a battle ship they are more like nuclear fuses waiting to be lit!
Ok, enough of my soapbox, just need to express what's going on and perhaps writing it down can help me focus even more. I'm sure the wife all ready knows what kind of mode I maybe in for the next couple of months as her expression was pretty much the same as mine once we look at each other while getting this great news!
I must rise to this challenge, I must believe, I must live today as it were my last!!!!
You must believe Skindy!!!!!
Expecto Skitronum!!!!!
Arise Skidimus, ARISE!!!!
Again, sorry for the soapbox,
Ski