I actually saw someone today that said I looked like I'd lost more in the 3 weeks since I last saw them, I have lost 3lbs, but I think I'm really at a point where the scale and what's happening with my body are out of sync, the scale only says a bit each week but I feel like more's going on with me that I see. Biggest thing right now is I can see my veins under my skin for the first time ever. I've always had tough veins, couldn't get IVs or anything because they didn't show, now I can see them and I can tell next stop is actually having them protrude somewhat through my skin.
I do find that I'm at a tough crossroad for the motivation now though. I'm not where I want to be yet and I'm still striving for it, but part of me is finding content with where I am because it's so drastically better than where I was. I set out to do a 180 with my appearance and I've hit the 90 degree point now and I have to work a little harder to get the same fire to go that last night as I had for the first 90.
and Maul you are here,
we CAN DO DIS!!!! U've made it this far, you haven't quit... I see it all the time, ppl that get super motivated and at the last few times of making that crucial life altering changes, they quit because it gets too hard. You have beaten the odds and by posting here today shows me that you are still serious on making these changes. Don't start doubting, and I don't think you are but don't even think about it. Start watching some Rocky movies, watch my blog vidoes, pick up some magazines, watch the UFC reality TV show... Do something that surrounds you into
positive vibes and get that
desired fire burning mindset.
It's too close to quit, it's too much work to quit, get mad, get pumped, smash something (not the SW busts though)!!!!! Think that no one else is doing this, you are the
elite and it takes
persistence and
dedication to become just that
ELITE!!!!
You know everyday whenever I drive my car to Gold's at 3:00-3:30 am in the morning I have the same thoughts, who else is doing this, why am I doing this, it's because I'm living, living to be the
best and be the
best and nothing is in my way but myself and everyone (friends, family members, co-workers, FREAKS) can think how weird, wow that's crazy, you are insane but in reality many ppl in the world don't have a
passion about something like this and I'm bless that god has giving me the
perseverance,
dedication,
control,
mindset in order to accomplish something great in this world.
This is my
passion, my reason to live!
(that and acquiring a Darth Vader 1:1 bust from Sideshow
)